http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/ lonewolf94086 - LiveJournal.com Thu, 06 Aug 2009 20:51:54 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com lonewolf94086 13946466 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/66724221/13946466 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/ 78 100 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2632.html Thu, 06 Aug 2009 20:51:54 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2632.html   I am starting to understand what my family and other people have said about me is true.I have been living a pipe dream.My grand father and father was rite my photograph skill was a waste of my time.Plus i have been like my mother only living on dreams that will never come true.i need to wake up and grow up to the fact that i have no real skills to get a real job.I will be working all my life in no end jobs just to get by.I am truthfully my mothers so a loser.At least i am starting to understand who i am and learning to live with this fact. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2632.html public 1 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2484.html Wed, 28 Jan 2009 22:08:37 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2484.html I called great america to see if they had any information about the job and they told me it is still pending and cant give me any info.This stinks! http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2484.html public 0 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2243.html Tue, 27 Jan 2009 21:46:07 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2243.html Well i am single broke and waiting to see if i will get a job at great america . I took a drug test for the job but i am scared since the quick test they did came out positive for met which i do not understand.None of my meds would show up as met at least thats what my dr says.They are now sending it to the labs and i cant find out the results until great america doese all of the checks.I do not know what i will do if i don't get the job.I even cut my hair and shaved off my beard for the job.My car is broke down and its hard to go to the grocery store on my bike.I am just getting frustrated every time i look like i am getting a little ahead all hell breaks out and things go to the shitter.I might even have to borrow money from my father so i can pay  bills until i start my job at great america and start getting paid there.I had to move i am now in a different apartment but the same address.New owners at my apartment so rent went up. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/2243.html public 1 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1893.html Tue, 27 Nov 2007 21:36:05 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1893.html Well it is official we are getting a divorce. Sherry called me yesterday and informed me that she filed the papers for the divorce.This is the best thing for sherry to do.She diserve's allot better then me . I know she will be allot more happy with me not being in her life.All i ever did for her was bring her down.The worst thing she ever did was when she made the mistake and said i do and did not listen to her familly.Now that we will be getting a divorce she will be able to improve her life better then if she was with me.Her familly was rite in saying that i was no good for her.I am like my mother a leech that brings people down and she was rite i will never change.she will have a happy life full of adventure and happyness without me if she did not do this all her life would be full of is heartache and failure. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1893.html public 3 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1619.html Thu, 11 Oct 2007 18:52:31 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1619.html Well guess what it thursday the day i had my appointment.i showed up early to my appointment had a good talk with my counselor and made some good goals for my therapy.we set up now my appointment's for every thursday morning.I think this time this will help.I really think this is going to help this time but its going to be a long ruff road. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1619.html public 2 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1451.html Wed, 10 Oct 2007 18:21:14 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1451.html ok it is oficial  I lost my bloody mind my appointment is not today it tomorow on thursday for some reason i thought today was thursday and sat in the office  for a hour just to relise today is not thursday grrrrrr. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1451.html public 1 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1209.html Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:32:14 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1209.html well tomorrow i am going to my counselor appointment at 10 am i am so nervous that my stomach is upset and i am having a hard time sleeping all i did last night is pace back and forth.I just hope this time this will help me but at least this time i am doing it for the rite reasons .I am not doing this because some one told me to do so or it would make anyone happy i did so i am doing this for my own state of mind.I just wish i was not as stupid and stubborn as i am and listen to people when they tried to tell me to get help.Because of my stubbornness and my fear it messed up my marriage and probably many other things i have cared for in my life. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/1209.html public 2 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/911.html Mon, 08 Oct 2007 20:24:20 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/911.html Well i went to the ren fair on saturday with my friend justen it was weird i did not wear a costume since i road my bike.I never relised how weird it would be to go to the fair without sherry and not to be dressed up as a pirate.fair was ok but not the same.This is something that is going to take a while to get use to but i guess i will. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/911.html public 2 http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/646.html Wed, 03 Oct 2007 21:31:09 GMT http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/646.html It looks like there is a chance that my mother inlaw and father inlaw is going to be closing the business i do not know what i will do if this happens yet.I do understand why this will happen though the business is slow and my father inlaw has a chance to do something he loves doing.I just dont know what i will do i really dont have many skills for a real job the only things i know how to do is minumum wage jobs but i gues thats what i will have to do, but like they say everything happens for a reason iI just dont know the reason yet. http://lonewolf94086.livejournal.com/646.html public 5